John & Lindsey

Friday, May 21, 2010

...and how was your day?

It's another aloha Friday and earlier I went to a local book store that was having a local psychic/angel reader who was going to be giving a talk. This woman has been doing these talks every Friday for quite some time and for some reason, I have been compelled to go and check her out. I am generally open to psychic's, having been to some many years ago and believe that some people do have this gift. I was sitting among about 15 other people and she was talking about herself and what she does in a reading. She kept looking at me while she was talking, would look away, then look right back at me. I started fidgeting in my seat. Then she walked over to me and asked if she could "read" me, that she doesn't usually do a reading in her talks, but kept "hearing" things about me. I said yes and she sat down next to me. She asked me to say my birth name 3 times. She had her eyes closed for a few minutes then said I was carrying great sadness. There was a dark circle of heavy energy in my chest. She said I was connected to someone who had passed away, but I carried the grief in my chest. She said I must be exhausted all of the time. Of course, I had tears running down my cheeks. She asked me if I was working on a large project. She offered some exercises to do when I need help clearing that grief out. It was quite remarkable. I have had chronic fatigue syndrome for several years and I am tired most of the time. I left feeling emotionally drained but also lighter.
I have mostly been editing this past week. I took my floppy disc's into our computer repair place and they are going to try and print out my missing pages.
Have a great weekend! Aloha


  1. That sounds like a very powerful experience. I wonder what they would say about me! I, too, am connected strongly to someone (several people actually) who passed away, but the odd thing is that one died nearly 40 years before I was born, one when I was two and the other when I was eight. All are in the book I'm currently writing.

    I could only imagine how terrible it would be to lose a child. I'm not sure I would survive it. I give you a lot of props for recognizing you must tackle this book and having the strength to do it.

  2. Thanks for the message, Kim. I can't wait to read your work! Unfortunately, you do survive, even though you don't want to. I've done grief counseling on and off for years, but recently went back to it here in Hawaii. The counselor, after hearing me talk about Sean and how I relive and relive his days in hospice (2 months before he died) told me that I was "stuck" in my grief. That opened up so much in me, something I had never considered. It's the daily challenge of getting out of bed and living my life, something Sean would encourage me to do.